The reason

After a year or two, it felt rather awkward to log in for a post.

Its been so long that I've almost forgotten its existence. And so I thought, what made me wrote and rant on this blog in the first place?

Reading through my older posts, I realised that the reason I blog is because I disagree and refuse to accept that the realities in life differ so much from my very own ideals. I had my ego and pride to humbly accept things just like that. I retaliate, and question of the things that I did not understand or reasons that did not satisfy me. I succumbed to my weaknesses and wanted to stay within my comfort zone. 

But the time I've spent staying abroad had shown me so much more. Things that I could not have imagined happened within these few years. With new found freedom, I felt adventurous. Being away from home made me independent and appreciated the people who are important in your life; be it friends or family. I've learnt of the working society in the UK and met all sorts of people.

I learnt to rant less and resolve things calmly. I learnt to carry myself and manage my own life. I strived and tried my best, and if was beyond my reach, I learnt to let go. And most importantly, I learnt to find and accept myself for who I am, and not who I could or would become.

And thanks to those who stood by my side all these while, I had the courage to move on without hesitation.

岁月

朋友，好久不见了。

在这忙碌的生活当中，你还好吧？

这么突然好像回到过去，

回到那年轻和任性的小时候，

回到当初我们认识的时候，

回到在那熟悉的课室里，

被一片温暖的阳光与黄色的窗帘照亮的课室里，

回到我们的圆点，

回到岁月还没留下痕的那一瞬间。

Breathe

It wasn't long since I last joined the Malaysian Society Social. Got to know a few juniors and its ridiculous that I have only realised that I am already 4 years elder than the 17-year-old freshers.


With the constant workload and the lack of inspiration, Facebook would have been a better choice to spam my thoughts. This year round, things have been more... serene? Unlike my previous years, when it was hell of a roller coaster ride. Or it might have just been me getting used to sit on the roller coaster. A sign of getting old I guess :/


I was really knackered throughout the placement hunting but I guess the effort finally paid off. However, I did not enjoy the constant bombardment of assignment deadlines. Although some of the assignments seemed pretty interesting, with so many pieces of work piling up, its difficult to get motivated. I need that kick in the arse to get me moving.


Recently, I have visited a small local brewery to brew my own lager! Although the size of the brewery was somehow disappointing, nonetheless, it was very intriguing. It looked like an illegal brewery site in someone's garage. Had two and a half pints of different lager during the field trip and when we were about to leave, I was given 2 bottles to being home for free! Oh rejoice of the beer-lovers! By the way, the sun-dried tomato sandwich in Relish (the name of the sandwich bar) was pretty awesome! The size of their salads were ginormous... probably an understatement... enough to feed a cow...

Oh and also I'll be taking part in a play for this year's Malaysian Night! It was all good fun and it was something that I wanted to do for a long time. I should probably try audition for a musical the next time I see one.

And so I guess all thats left for me to do now is to sort out my accomodation in London before September and to take out all those pesky assignments and courseworks before my Easter holidays begin! Easter fills up the whole of Easter this year and if time allows, I should most probably fit in a 2 week travel to somewhere before I come back for my revisions. *sigh* only about 4 more months to finish off my second year. My, my, how time flies...

And so thats sort of a brief summary of what I've been doing lately ;)

Till then, my dear friends, irregards of how often we talk or where you are around the world, please take care :)

P.S: Living in denial based on extenuating circumstances might not be such a bad idea :/ Comments?

Hello Two-One

By the Window Pane

A carefree posture,

With a hint of the lingering tobacco,

The grey hair and wrinkled skin,

Were the traces and trails of time left behind.

Years and years from now,

Perhaps I would be daydreaming my way just the same way,

By the window panes...

P.S: Been a while since I played with the pictures in my camera using Photoshop :)

Done and Over

Its been a very long time since I last shed a tear,

But at the very least, I managed to pull myself together.

And walked away with my pride.

Scars will fade, and wounds will heal,

With my head held high, looking at the skies,

Its so relieving to say that "I'm so done and over with you" :')

Today

Today, a friend of mine had her heart broken,

Today, a friend on mine woke up from his dreams,

Today, a friend of mine moved on from her uncertainties,

Today, a friend of mine shared her joy of success,

And today, I found a piece of puzzle that might just seem to be the missing piece that I've been looking for.

Just how long have I been living this life of mine in denial,

As the vast horizon of pink and purple stretches across the gloomy winter skies,

I was reminded that how the trivial things in life like an ordinary sunset can be so captivating...

Its about time that I should stop running.

To take a good look at my surroundings.